29/08/04

Yesterday, after the test in singapore polytechnic went to take the promotion form and went to eat in long john silver. Then call mum to drove me to see doctor because i have fever, flu and cough. Then go back home to take medicine and take a rest and woke up at 4.50pm. Took a shower and wear the formal clothings. Call my dad to drove to mrt to meet my friends. Reach occ at 6 plus. I am still droze as i just consume my medicine. Sat there and something happen, the waitress accidentally pour water on my back. I am quite angry cause i am sick already and still got this craps. But nevermind, i just sat there for this boring dinner. What a waste of time as i can sleep at home and rest.
Woke up at 12pm today, eat a bowl of scallop porridge. Wow tasty sia. But after that have to eat the medicine. Then went to do my process instrumentation report and forget to save. End up have to redo again. F**k lah.Tml still got test. I am too tired liao and need a good rest.

Feel like walking in the rain

Try to wash away all the problems and pain

What had happened, cannot be undo and the only thing left is painful or sweet memories..........

Sailing through the ocean and never come to this world of worries and pain again.........

25 August 2004 ( Sick again)

I got so may projects in and out. Now still down with flu and headache. Idiot sia. I am damn weak sia......
The work load build up each day. Test and examinations coming soon. In addition, i am damn pissed off with the society. This society is so ungraceful and full with craps. People are only care about themselves and inconsiderate. Human beings are damn selfish animals. Me tooo! The only people that really care about me are only my parents. They are simply the best. My parents always fulfill my wishes. They always save the best things to me. They are most noble from my point of view.....
Attratchment coming soon. I going missing in action from ncc for at least 5 months. Finally i can take break off at sat to go out to breath and live a more lively life. But not at home, study,play game and listen songs.
Ncc no longer stand a position in my heart as my standard drop with respect with of the standard of ncc.

Stress+projects+Ncc + workload = Crazy



My Dad and Mum are the simply the best....

21 August 2004

Saturday, went to polytechnic to take a test and then attend a make-up lesson. Sian wake up at 8 am. Reach home at 2pm. Rest for awhile and went to buy a new handphone. Nokia 6600 as it is quite a good buy now as i bought at 530 dollars. Then reach home and find out that singapore hope of getting gold or silver medal has ended. Nevermind still got bronze medal opportunity. I think li jia wei should have won as the first 4 games, she play very well.

Worse thing happen, i quarrel with brother. As my anger build up and i almost fought with brother. I hate u alfonso. U are none of my business of me anymore..He is so unreasonable and will ever give in to him anymore......

18 August 2004 (Anger = Energy)

Having fever for this past few days. I have decide not to close down this bloggie. Sick and heartbroken have landed me into a more weak situation. The only things left in me as energy is my anger and my desperation for excel. In addition, my classmates scold me as i am too arrogant, bad-tempered and sick. I only can tell them too bad. If they not happy, trash me up lah. Since from last semster, they dunt like me and i always dunt like my class. Stress this week, got 2 tests and make-up lesson on sat. My anger is building up like the energy of the sun. I had unoffically step out of my ncc school units. I no longer have the passion in ncc. I afraid i go down and make some cadets cry due to my anger



Energy = Anger + Hatred + Pain= Driving Force

11 August 2004

For those who visit my blog, thanks. Due to too much craps on blog, i planning to close down. In this few days, i battle myself but i have failed and defeated by myself instead of defeating myself. Motivation and determination cannot help me at all. My last opportunity has failed. Friends and those who care about me, no point helping me anymore. I am too tired and need a long rest from reality. I fail to be a successful leader, a caring friend, a role model brother, a knowlegable student, a future engineer and a good son. i declare i missing in action from reality and live in my world of darkness since i am a permist. I am always depressed everyday.
I am not content with my life. I have lost almost everything. Luckily, i have my parents and brother. But i never let them know my problems.

Am i going insane?

06 August 2004

What is life? Have anyone think about it. I think is a process of learning how to live in this world from cradle to grave.However, human beings' bodies are weak and are vulnerable to injury and pain. Even our emotions and thoughts are critical in our life. What is most crucial is humans' spirit and determination. They are simply the strongest parts of humans on earth. The determination can made everything possible. Determination and spirit can lead people out of difficult situation.

4/08/04(dOOM)

Never blog for a week due to problems and problems.................. I cannot solve even one. What the Hell.